Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Twenty-Four Years Ago

Was it really 24 years ago yesterday?  The phone call is ingrained in my memory like it was only twenty-four MINUTES ago.  Sunday morning, January 25, 1987, the phone rang as I was sleeping at our on-base housing unit in Yokosuka, Japan.  I awoke, and answered quickly – the man on the other end telling me that I needed to come home.  Completely disarmed, and wondering why my Mom wasn’t calling me, I assumed that something was wrong with my Mom.  “Where’s Mom?”, I asked, suspiciously.

“Molly has committed suicide.  You need to come home.”

I dropped the phone and screamed – my dog, Kuma, ran away from me.  I’m not sure how much time passed, but I remember hearing my Mother’s voice on the phone screaming… “Kelly!  Kelly!”  

 I finally picked up the phone and my completely devastated Mom confirmed to me that my little sister, Molly, was indeed, dead.  The very first traumatic experience in my life, and I was worlds away from Baton Rouge, Louisiana.  My husband at the time was on deployment on a US Aircraft Carrier, and I was worlds away. 
It took the Red Cross (thank God for the Red Cross) twenty-four hours to coordinate my transportation home.  Twenty-four hours that I was unable to sleep.  Twenty-four hours in which I did not know “how” Molly completed suicide.  Twenty-four hours for the rest of my family to coordinate traveling back to Pensacola, Florida, where Molly would be buried.  Twenty-four of the most disturbing hours of my life. 

In honor of Molly, 02/07/72 – 01/25/87, I post her own writing….


Look into the forest of problems
The tree of sadness, the path of death
All troubles begin here
As enveloped, we gasp for a breath

All life seems to end as one enters here
Everything is troublesome
A place that has no cheer

Then turn your back
And glance at the lake of hope
The wave of laughter
The lily pad of love
With which do you wish to cope?

Swimming in glory
You dangle in the sun
Until problems never present
Transform to one

Which way will you turn?
Pleasure or Plead?
Love and Laughter?
Or will your heart bleed?

by Molly Ann DeMarchis

Suicide is NOT the answer.  It is a permanent solution to a TEMPORARY PROBLEM.   Make the right choice.  Molly chose to shoot herself in the heart with a .357... Our Mother found her.  It forever changed our family.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

I'm honored, and humbled...

I've been given my very first blogging award, and, frankly, I'm speechless.

Look what I got!!

Mommy Rantings Blog Award

I'm thrilled! I'm humbled! May I bloom to your expectations!!  If you haven't already, please go over to Mommy Rantings , and check her out!  She has helped me tremendously as I begin my blog journey!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Love Drop – Paying It Forward … One Person at a Time

Hello, y’all! I had the neatest experience over on Facebook this weekend and wanted to tell you about it! I logged onto Facebook and saw a post from one of my friends about a contest that was going on over at Pete the Planner’s page.

Pete the Planner is from Indianapolis, and is a radio host, writer, and personal finance expert. Because of the playoff game on Saturday, between the New York Jets and the Indianapolis Colts, he pledged to donate $1 per POINT for every point the Colts scored to the charity that voted the most by commenting on his Facebook page. The rules allowed for only one vote per person, and the voting would end at 12:00 PM on Saturday, January 8, 2011. Well, if you know me, you KNOW how fanatical I am about the Pancreatic Cancer Action Network (PanCan). I will jump in at any opportunity to raise funds for PanCan, in honor of my Mom! Pete was showing his readers how to “give creatively”. What a neat idea, right?

I have made so many friends on Facebook because we all have suffered from Pancreatic Cancer in one form or other. Some people are like me, and have already lost a loved one to the vicious disease. Some people are actually survivors, struggling to beat it. And, some people are actually caregivers, taking care of someone they love that is fighting this nasty cancer. What did I do? I re-posted the link, of course! Well, so many people re-posted and participated that Pancreatic Cancer Action Network won the contest! I was so fascinated that I got to participate in a fund-raiser for PanCan while sitting right at my computer!

Because this contest, which was held on Facebook and Twitter, got so much attention and participation, many donors jumped on board with Pete and pledged money for each point the Colts scored. I believe the final tally per point was $260, instead of the original $10 per point Pete pledged. The final score of the game was the Jets 17, and the Colts 16. Yes, the Colts lost, but Pancreatic Cancer Action Network scored $4,160!!!  Amazing! Paying it forward is so rewarding!!

Fast-forward to today when I read a blog by The Debt Princess, where she discussed a new blog, called the Love Drop: 

Love Drop is a really neat, brand new micro-giving network of individuals "subscribing to the team for as little as $1 a month, who change the lives of one person or family every month through an unexpected financial gift, personal encouragement and the development of an ongoing local and online support network".   

Every month the Love Drop Community will get together and come up with creative ideas to raise awareness, funds, and other support necessary to fulfill their cause.  The very first recipient is Jill in Chicago.  The Love Drop is going to work with Jill and her kids, who lost everything in a fire and are now homeless.  I cannot imagine the devastation of losing EVERYTHING but the clothes on my back. 

Kona Grill has stepped up and partnered with Love Drop this month to sponsor Jill and her family.  How cool is that?!?!  I love seeing families deserving of help actually get it!!  Why don’t you pop on over to the Love Drop and check them out!  Get involved.  You, too, can make a difference in someone’s life.  Pay it forward!!


Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Pancreatic Cancer - Know it! Fight It! End It!!!

This is SUCH GOOD news in the fight against Pancreatic Cancer!  Though not available tomorrow, it WILL be available!! Now, that's what I call a winning situation!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

It's MY life...

So, Happy New Year's Eve Eve... 

I have now been married to the man of my DREAMS for a little over a year.  However, I am not happy with MY PART of my life.  What?  What in the world does that mean?

First, I love my husband DEARLY and I love being married to him.  I wouldn't change the gift I was given the day he walked into my life ever - EVER.  

What is wrong?  This once extremely organized woman has turned into a mess!  I used to have each task of my household scheduled on a certain day.  Now?  I'm lucky if I do laundry once a week!  I quit working six months ago so that I could become a Domestic Goddess!  I am now feeling like the Evil Stepsister!  

How to break this cycle of domestic chaos?  How to break the cycle of feeling completely unhealthy physically?  How to get the umph back in my life?  I do not yet know the answers.  I'm frustrated.  I sleep way to late in the morning.  I don't plan meals like I feel like I should.  I don't clean my home like I feel like I should... There isn't an area in my life right now where I don't feel like "I should"... 

I'm reaching out to the wide world of the internet... writing to my ONE blog follower!  Thank you, Kristen!  

What are you frustrated with in your life?  What would you change in the "I should" category? 

Life is a gift..